Are you sure she’s the one for you? When you met her a year and a half ago, she said she loved your beard. I know you loved it, but six months ago, she decided she no longer liked it. Maybe you should shave? At first you said no. But then you agreed. You told all your friends it was time for a change anyway, so off it came.
Are you sure she’s the one? When you met her, she knew you’re a teacher and that you always want to be one. She said it didn’t matter that you don’t make a mint. But then she began encouraging you to take classes in business and management. I know you cringed a little. You told me how you felt, but then you signed up for a few classes.
Then came the house you share. It’s in a lovely neighborhood. You love your neighbors, and they love you. But there’s a four bedroom, three bath colonial across town, and best of all, it has a swmming pool. More room to entertain. You like to entertain? Guess i missed that. I’ve known you for twenty seven years. But, i suppose i also get that people can change. Then, i also know that you have next to no debt. How will it be when you have a lot?
In the last couple of months, she’s begun buying you new clothes. Different shirts. Shirts in colors that you’ve never worn. That marigold yellow thing with the screaming red tie? A tie? Are you kidding me man? But like i said, change can be good. It can mean growth, and that’s excellent.
What about your car? You drive a ten year old Camry. It suits you. You don’t trade cars every four years or more often like some people. You like to drive your vehicles into the ground. A car is something you like fine. You take good care of yours, but the last thing you want is a status symbol. Do you really like that BMW she’s nagging you to buy? But again, people’s tastes change as they age…
And church? You go to church now. You hate it. You told me that. What’s up with that, my atheist friend? She must be pretty amazing for you to make yourself over this way. And yeah, she’s gorgeous. Better looking than i’ll ever be. You and i are friends. Maybe what i’m feeling is part jealousy. Or not. I really can’t tell. I love you though. I know that. And i guess if you’re happy, i’m happy. But are you, James? Please think some more before you leap! Are you sure? I’m going to sign this because i’m writing it in my journal. You’ll never see it. Just wanted to get it out…
Anyway.. yours always.. if only you’d notice.. Karen.